dismembered

I had a premonition and ran into the bedroom. I could see that my friend was lying on the floor under the bed, and that she was bleeding. I knelt down, trying to see how she was hurt. With horror, I realised that she had deliberately cut off both of her big toes and both of her thumbs. She simply lay on the ground, staring up at the bottom of the bed, blood pooling around her. I pulled her out, cradling her, and pleaded with her to tell me why she had done this. She looked dazed.